Sunday, October 29, 2006
missed me, missed me now you've got to kiss me,
Monday, October 09, 2006
if you kiss me, mister, you must think im pretty,
if you think so mister, you must want to fuck me
if you fuck me, mister, it must mean you love me,
if you love me, mister, you would never leave me.
it's as simple as can be!
- dresden dolls, "missed me"
i think there's something strangely compelling about those lyrics haha. strangely ridiculous and strangely understandable. reminds me of the book alias grace by margaret atwood! grace marks. but i don't know why hrmmm.
umm my leg hurts it's those aching dull pains. very irritating and impossible to soothe unless i pound away at my leg with my fist but i can't do that all the time can i. bah humbug.
is it just me or do people fall into relationships very easily? i was just..wondering. as in i dunno if i'm MISINFORMED but it seems to me lots of people fall into r/ships so easily fall into love or anything masquerading as love, very easily. (easily =/= shortlived btw) i don't understand that i'm sure it's not just me and my cynicism but. SERIOUSLY. im not saying i WANT to fall into r/ships easily too, cos i'm not sure i wanna fall into r/ships at all, it just confuzzles me and i don't like not understanding things. ?? strange.
is it that easy for two people to like each other? and even if you do, so what? doesn't mean a r/ship will work out. baby sometimes love just ain't enough, and all that. what abt all the other considerations? ??!!
ok enough i have to get back to tidying my room! i have successfully managed to clean up one of my study tables, previously unusuable because it was clogged full of..random junk, which i have now thrown away. i'm a very bad thrower-away of things, but i think i'm getting better!
[and all the pretty people party while the petty people pout!]island*KISS 5:18 PM
how can post-exams feel this awful?!?! it's all pw's fault. and .. other things but that's just me being me. how did things get so gross! eww.
Monday, September 25, 2006
but after partying the last 5 days or so i feel so bored now. and i haveta constantly remind myself that NOTHING IS GOING ON HERE THAT I HAVENT SIGNED UP FOR, so get over it! ok it's not a MAJOR thing, just a pain in the butt. and a very disgruntled feeling, cos i told you(myself) so! wth.
ok but it's really.. nothing there so whatever. i feel like eating ice cream. dyou know i've been eating so much. shit. i'm gonna balloon.island*KISS 9:07 PM
i feel like i am slowly being replaced. that i am sitting in a tin can that is getting rusty, and slowly leaking out through a small hole at the bottom. no one sees it because it's hidden from view but i can feel the gradual disappearing. and the air that is replacing the space is suffocating me, but unintentionally.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
that was SO handmaid's tale.island*KISS 1:15 AM
if not for the fact that i never public bitch.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
EURGH.island*KISS 8:00 PM
i'm no barbie doll
Saturday, August 19, 2006
i'm not your baby girl
i've done ugly things
and i have made mistakes
and i am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
i am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
i'm not as pretty as those girls in magazines, dammit!
(and i have no life)
why do you love me? it's drivin' me crazyisland*KISS 10:49 PM
IT'S JUST ANOTHER DAY!
Saturday, July 29, 2006
NOTHING IN MY WAY!
i tell you it's been strange times haha but it's okay. life is calmer than it has been for a long time, even though i have a lot of things to do. but sitting here on a windy soon-to-be-rainy saturday afternoon, everything seems a little diminished and even my period cramps don't seem so bad! i have warm water. i have good music. i have my books and my Bible.
i want to go shopping. i haven't shopped for over a month i swear (national day doesn't count). shoot. ok well i will mug econs and then go and watch my taped ep of smallville. clark kent <3 FOREVERRRRR
jeanette winterson writes such liquid prose it makes me utterly jealous. haha. and i need to change my phone it's awfully laggy and getting all scratched and everything. no surprise, the way i abuse it. ohwell.
[i don't wanna go
i don't wanna stay
so there's nothing left to say]island*KISS 12:28 PM
they really WERE all lies, you know.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
sigh. then again i lie too so what can i say. there's no point arguing about how my lies are whiter than yours. maybe they aren't. cos we're just cheating, ha ha ha.
ohwell. hello hello i won't let you down :)
cos you've got the best intentions which i fully appreciate, but spirit is willing flesh is weak, and so on.
"this too shall pass", and all that jazz.
what a can of worms!
:(island*KISS 12:00 AM
eurgh the work is starting to POUR in.. for maybe about the first time this entire year. i guess i shldnt be complaining haha. actually i'm not really griping. i mean of course it's annoying but being busy makes me vaguely purposeful not to mention zombifies me and stops me from doing stupid things. not that i have been doing stupid things. or at least not as stupid. hmm.
ok well anyway i need to save my econs from the depths of hell. other than that i'm pretty ok i think. i like my subjects. even though now that we're back to seasian stuff for hist i'm starting to feel ARRGH all over again. seasia confuzzles me so many people so many places so many things. and i hate modern politics.
various things have been going WRONG. lets hope they start going right again then. i played pool today for the first time in erm. 2 months? hmm. no. ok i dunno. who cares.
[can't always be waiting, waiting on you
can't always be playing, playing your fool]
to look you in the eye
it's easier to lie
i <3 aqualung i think their sound is simply beautifulisland*KISS 11:00 PM